I really REALLY wish this day never had to come, but I suppose it was inevitable. I don't know how many people will be upset by this, or how many people will even really care, but...ah hell, I'll just get it out there.

My mum saw me on here. And, as I completely forgot, she nad Dad have not allowed me or my sis to go on sites that "involve giving out personal information". As I said, I completely forgot about this 'agreement' (they made it and kinda forced us to comply about 4 years back); besides, dA's not exactly a 'chat room', right? Well, they never told me before, but apparently people can track where info's coming from to the informator's computer. My parents are...well, very rigid about that. So basically, I can't be on here while I'm at home. and even though that might be okay for a little while, it's gonna cause some problems in June. Because I have no high school after June. And guess what? I'm staying at home while at Uni! >_<

So...gotta make this quick now, cuz some class is gonna come to the library soon. But a BIG and to everyone on this entire site. You guys have really inspired me, and I wish I didn't have to leave. I might be on a couple of times, but essentially, I'm gone. -_- Sorry about this. *sigh* Also I've got a few problems as well, so...yeah.

This has been one of the most interesting weeks ever. My Mum gave me another option for this year: apply for Art History which I can take starting in September. It goes for two years. Anyways, next summer, I could take a Fundamentals in Illustration and Design course, then complete Art History. After THAT, I could apply for IDEA again and do that for 3 years.

So basically, i'll be in Uni for 5 years. Which, lunkily, works out perfectly. Cuz all the people I wanna look for later are going to Uni for either 4 or 4.5 years. Yay! So I'm not angry anymore. Quite the opposite actually. I jumped into IDEA without thinking; hehe...I've done something like that before, but that was a long time ago.

Ah, crap. Bell went. -__- Gotta go to Geography now.

Have fun guys!

Hi guys.

Well, uh...how do I say this? >_> I've got a gap year, but not intentionally. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, even though I worked on my portfolio for 2 months straight, IDEA still put me in the same boat as the 69 other people who had to be turned down from the program. And, you know, I didn't apply anywhere else.

I'm not in college. I'm not in high school. For a year I'm nowhere. It's...not that bad, really. I've got another chance to make a portfolio that's even better than the one I submitted and just got back. But still...even though it's obviously not the end of the world, I...kinda feel like I've let you all down somehow. Like I've kinda let everyone down. You guys have all been cheering me on, and I couldn't get in. I "didn't do well enough". It "needed further development". To my pessimistic mind, that's just another way of saying "nope, you're not good enough. Try again and maybe we'll take you, if we don't find 30 other people who are better than you are".

I hate it. >_< But I guess I've just gotta suck it up and deal with it. Life is fair, but this just wasn't my day. Wasn't my year. Maybe I wasn't meant to start this year. And hey: I always dreamed of having a gap year before starting university. But that was going to be with my sister, and we were gonna travel around the world together. But noooo, she gets to be accepted into UBC! So I am STUCK here, waiting for my chance to come again. I am simultaneously relieved and frustrated. All hail the human emotions, which can get you so confused they screw up your brain and drag you to the borderline between being fine and having SERIOUS issues. >_< *sigh*

Heh. And I've just started trying to bring my self-esteem up to normal levels when this happens. Still, in the letter they gave me, they did say I have talent. Then again, they say that to everyone who's applied. But I think it means something. IDEA's a hard program to get into. The fact that I even HAVE talent's pretty good. This year I can work at getting even better; especially since I won't have school to distract me. I can just focus on my art and whatever job I'll get to save money. Mum's gonna make me get one, so I might as well. Gotta do SOMETHING while my sister's going to Uni, right? could get a job at Opus, which is an art store down on Lonsdale. ^_^ I've never been there before, but it's where all the school's art supplies come from. I figure it wouldn't be that bad to work at a place that's involved with practically the only thing I'm talented at.

So..yeah. Hmm, wow. I think I'm feeling a bit better just from writing this. I know I can get into IDEA one day; just not today. I can do it. ^_^ I can make another portfolio. I know, cuz I've already done one! XD Besides, I'm getting inspired everyday! How bad could it be, right? And, with all you guys cheering me on, I think i'll be able to get it right the next time 'round. I'll do it for you guys; but, more importantly, I'll do it for myself. In fact, that's why I do art: to express myself. And that was very off topic, so I think I'll stop now.

to everyone! ^_^ whom I will list because I feel like it!



...wow. :0_o: I know a lot of people. *shrugs* Ah, it's cool! You guys are the best! ^__^

Well, guess this is "bye" for now!

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PPS: ID is in the works! XD

Hii!

More devs comin up guys! I'm gonna start on my ID today so bear with me lol Definitely gonna have one up today, so YaY! :joy:

Also, I get my portfolio back today. And I get to see if I've been accepted for an interview next week. OOOOooooh. 0_0 Hope things go well! *crosses fingers*

Damn it, lunch is just about done. Gotta delve into the wonderful world of Geopgraphy next. Whee. ¬¬ My teacher's great, but the subject just doesn't seem as fun as it used to be. -_- Ah well. At least I have to term project for it this time. THANK GOD x_X

See ya later! *runs*

Just gonna make it a quick entry this time. I'm thinking of doing an ID soon. Cuz I'm bored. I got the idea for it yesterday. And started doodling t in Geography class. Yes, I know. I have NO IDEA why I'm drawing random things in class when i'm suposed to be paying attanetion. It shall forever be a mysteryyy! XD

But unfortunately, schoolwork's come back to bite me on the ass today. -_- Which meeaans, I'm gonna be working on History all afternoon. >_< ERG.Which sucks. Cuz lately I've been getting inspired to do artistic thingies, like, every day for the past 2 weeks. And guess what? I'm getting less time to do them. >_< WHAT THE CRAP. Wish I was lucky and had school end next week for me. You lucky guy, ! Damn it! XP You get to laugh while the rest of us poor sods still have 2 months of work ahead of us! TAT Ah, well. Next year...

Anyways, I'm in the library right now, which is extremely quiet for some reason. >_> My sis and my friend have both dropped off the face of the earth, so i'm just sorta...hangin out here. Yeah. Hm...s'kinda boring here, actually. o_0 Think I'll just go meander off and do...something else. Lucky for me heroes is back from its hiatus and is showing a new eppie tonight! :cheers: Yay! I'll, er, half watch it while doing my History assignment! XD Why my teacher didn't just give us a quiz and be done with it I don't know. I mean, I have to make a propaganda pamphlet on Communist China. What the heck. >_>